I attended a funeral this morning. Though sad, it somewhat brought peace to me — knowing that the woman who fought so intensely on this Earth is now feeling zero pain and has entered the kingdom of God. How crazy to think she is there now, at a place she has longed to be for so long.
I’ve heard that people have “seasons” in their spiritual walk with Jesus. I think to myself, How can this be? When in reality, I have been living in a season of selfishness for so long now. It’s heartbreaking to me to think that a funeral is what gave me inspiration to continue my walk with Jesus, but the Lord knew that it had to take something.
Well, You certainly caught my attention this morning. We sang “On Eagle’s Wings” and shared remembrances of the person and well, do you remember the moment in which you felt that you needed to be saved by Christ? I had the same feeling come over me again.
Ok, I thought. You did it, Lord. You have my attention. Scared, frail, and unsteady, I prayed. I know that this person was brought into this world for a reason. It was in that moment that I realized that maybe it was her time to go to Heaven’s gates for a reason as well. The exact reason probably wasn’t solely to open my eyes again to The Lord, but I know for a fact that it contributed to that. God has good timing.
So, what did I do? I prayed. I cried. I came home. And I find inspiration in songs and my book that I poured my heart into during my time at CWE two years ago.
You’re a good, good Father. You are forgiving, patient, understanding — I can’t explain the way in which I feel at this moment in time. I just thank You for being a good Father.
“I’ve heard a thousand stories of what they think you’re like
But I’ve heard the tender whisper of love in the dead of night
And you tell me that you’re pleased
And that I’m never alone
You’re a Good, Good Father
It’s who you are, it’s who you are, it’s who you are
And I’m loved by you
It’s who I am, it’s who I am, it’s who I am
Oh, and I’ve seen many searching for answers far and wide
But I know we’re all searching
For answers only you provide
Cause you know just what we need
Before we say a word”